Be Happy
Life is…
On my morning walk today I was once again lost in my own thoughts. Even though it was a beautiful day with cool temps and a nice breeze I was feeling down, depressed, trying to lift the self-inflicted burdens of life off my shoulders.
I’m not really sure what to do, where to turn, or how to get myself out of this vicious trinity of anxiety, panic, and depression. They’ve become such a part of my life that when I’m not struggling with one or all of them and I’m actually feeling normal, then I feel weird, that something is missing, something is off. It’s a very strange feeling. Yes, I welcome the days, hours, and minutes that I’m feeling normal, but I certainly don’t like feeling weird about it.
Then almost as soon as I realize that I’m feeling good, that life is normal, that I don’t have a weight bearing down on me, it all comes rushing back. I start overthinking it all and the cycle repeats.
All of this was going through my mind, over and over again, as I continued my walk. It was almost like tunnel-vision. I was walking at a quick pace, but not seeing the world around me, not paying attention to anything but my inner turmoil… until something caught my eye, something out of place.
I did a double-take and found this little rock — just sitting on a post and giving me a simple message; “Be Happy.”
